Nostalgia

It's been months since I last saw you.
Seeing you today made everything come back in the blink of an eye.
We both went wrong, we both messed up.
I wonder if things would've been better if i'd just kept quiet.

The memories are still fresh and they make me smile.
I wish we could start over and you'd get to know me better.
We could have been the best of friends,
We could've made it work.

And as i sit here alone in my balcony by the window,
I miss what could have been,
It was some thing better than nothing.
I know you hate my sight.
But just back up, please back up.

Think about all those fun times, the laughter, and the smiles.
The silliness, the madness and the butterflies.
Hope one day you sit in your chair by your window,
And remember me, just Me.

Reminiscence

We had it good baby.
It was like stars shining so bright.
There was me feeling so so happy,
And then there was you, running out of fright.

That Valentine's night, you casually flirt and i fall for it.
That 21st April night, you're partying
and your friends tease you cause you're on the phone with me.

It's pretty late but I come to the party
You leave without saying a word and i follow you home,
I beg you to come out, you do, just to drop me home.
We have our little fights, you say kind words
and you seem to care and I fall for it.

Then comes that 28th April night,
Oh boy, we've drowned out the music, the crowd and our friends
We're getting lost and it's just you and I.
'You and I' that's the song you really love and I fall for it.
And as I kept falling, you kept taking steps back
I crashed and burned and boy did it hurt.
But you weren't there.
Now it's eight months and you still don't care.

something special for my special guy: JPaul

You say it's out of desperation and loneliness.
But I feel it's much much more.
It's there in your eyes, I can see it in your smile.

And I just love being with you,
Telling stories, getting lost and my wide eyed gaze.
Promise me we'll be like this forever.
And you say we'll always be together.

Am I dreaming or did reality just get better?
And it's new year's eve, I can think of no one else but you.
But you really got places to be and all I want to say is,
Hey hey, come back to me, I'm missing you like crazy.

Spent the best times beside you,
I want my new year's to be that too :)

Well, This is Closure: Alvin and the Chipmunks

Why did you let us die?
Did you forget I'm still alive?
Thought you were my one and only

Does your heart even beat,
'twas like our memories are set on repeat,
in my mind oh i loved you with my mind
But i see it all now.

I know you cared, you always did.
I thought you loved me, thought we were something special
Special. That's what you said I am.

I wish you hadn't been there.
Wish I could erase the pain.
But truth be told I'd still want to love you.
'Cause if I didn't, I'd never know how worthless loving you could be.

Now that i know, I'll never fall back.
You can never touch me again, the way you did before.
Now I can truly say, I love you no more.