My Guardian Angel gave me this Christmas Gift.

To the girl with a BIG heart and a BEAUTIFUL soul!

You're a breath of fresh air,
you're amazing and rare.
Good friends are few,
I'm glad i found one so true.

You're the best this year has given me,
I hope we always stay this way.
Life can change in a second,
I know you're here to stay.

You came in exactly when i needed someone like you.
You took all the pain away just by being you.
It feels like a dream but this is my reality
and it's so much better cuz it's so true.

The person you are, the things you stand for,
I admire these two.
For there cannot be a better one than you.
You're amazing just the way you are!

To become a Man (J. Paul)

I've thought about it a lot. From all the angles. Sometimes I understand why. Sometimes I miss us. But I don't want it back. I'm happy with my life. It's amazing like never before. I'm blessed. And the blessings have come faster than I expected. But you know what they say. After the hurricane, comes the rainbow.

Why did we happen then? It was like I loved you in a way I've never loved anyone. Cuz I held my heart back for the most part. But I gave it to you cuz I thought you deserved it. Thought you were the one. Maybe you were the one that got away. I wish I could understand why you happened to me. Yes I learned a lot. I learned to trust more, to understand more. Much more. To accept to adjust to adapt. Earlier, 95% of me fell for ur love even after u ended it all. But now it's jus a passing image of wat once was and wat will never be. And I'm happy I'm out of it. I made myself believe that I'm so lucky and blessed to have you. In the start I really was lucky. But later u took me for granted. You took and took and took. And left me (secretly) waiting hoping craving wanting ur attention even though I acted like I'm okay without you. You made my insecurities grow by doing stupid things. I should have known. Ur still a kid. You've yet to mature. To become a man.

Appreciation goes a long way.

From the time we're kids, our parents teach us the 3 magic words.
PLEASE
SORRY
THANK YOU.

Today, the television and as a result a few friends say things like "no need for formalities" or "in friendship there's no sorry and no thank you". Now if you notice, a lot of people complain about being disrespected today. The reason for this is either they are taken for granted, or their efforts go unnoticed or sometimes they are underappreciated. Worse still, they are depreciated.

Do you know why this is happening a lot more often now? Because people have forgotten the value of those three magic words. It's not a big deal to use them. It never hurt anyone. For all you know, it may even put a smile on a face that hasn't smiled in a while.

So value the things people do for you, regardless of how "formal" it may sound. You never know whose frown you might turn upside down! After all, etiquette is the basis of respect. Isn't that what our parents taught us?

MissUnderstood?

Sometimes people say no one understands them. That's because they don't really want to be understood. They want to be the victim. They want to be the one who no one understands. They thrive on it. Why? Because for them, it is what makes them different from everyone else.


“Maybe they like the pain. Maybe they're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe they just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.” - Meredith Grey.

The Power of The Holy Mass.

I'm feeling Elated. Went for Mass yesterday, felt Peaceful, the climate is better, I feel like my old happy self again. Realized that my Happiness is not a result of anyone being in my life or out of my life. My happiness lies in God's presence in and around me. True happiness comes wen u accept ur mistakes and then move on, realizing that no matter how painful the situation is, ur still Happy cuz that's Who You Are.  :) Peace and Happiness go hand in hand. Love drives you toward them. Love for God, love for those around you and love for yourself. For God lives in all these people. This kind of love is calm, silent and felt within ur soul. It makes ur spirit want to jump for Joy. But at the same time your body is still. Just taking it all in and giving it out to everyone you see and meet. Love is not boastful. It is enduring and it conquers all.

I end with these few words.  A priest once said, "The difference between happiness and pleasure is, happiness is felt in d midst of all the pain and chaos. Pleasure cannot co-exist with pain."

Drug HABITat?

As you know, many people today especially the youth are experimenting with drugs. What can you do to help these people? It's simple.

*Firstly, remember that whatever you do, make sure ur goal is to NOT stop a person's drug habit. If you make that your goal, you will be limiting yourself by focusing on ways to STOP his behaviour rather than working with him to help him realize on his own that he can get out of it and there is always a choice.
*Be a comforting friend/confidante to them
*Understand what they are going through
*DONT be harsh by saying things that will put them down. They are addicts. They are human.
*Be there as much as you can emotionally, invest time and patience.
*It may seem like it's not helping and the world isn't going to change but the world for that person will change drastically. Slowly but surely.
*Lastly, don't give up. U need to be strong till the very end. There's no guarantee that their drug habit will stop permanently. They could relapse. The best way to help them stop is the rehab. But then again, they hav to be willing to go.

Look at it this way. Maybe if you hadn't been there, they would have lost their life long before they truly lived. U being there for them, would have not only extended their life expectancy but also would have given them one more chance at life or one last breath of happiness before death. Peace.

Baby Blue

Such big beautiful eyes.. Wide eyed wonder.
Oh how i love thee.
Lips so fresh as the mornin dew.
A nose that knows no malice.

Ears that listen to every lil thing
Cheeks that can't help but be fluffy
Eyes that are full of hope n faith
A heart that sings sweet songs of praise

A tongue that speaks of a different time,
Hair that's perfectly in place, it shines.
Eyelashes as lovely as an artist's sculpture
A chin so smooth and oh so fine.

To the most beautiful baby I've ever seen,
Oh how i wish you were mine!

By The Sea.

My favourite place was by the sea.
U know the place we'd go to wen v wer free.
I loved d breeze n d sound of d waves
but mostly wat i cherished was your loving gaze.

Now we're older n busier
but still we go back to that place in our head n replay it over n over again.

For we know no matter where we may be,
together-forever is a definite.
Now we're working and busy with stuff
but in d near future we'll have more time for us.
And years from now we'll be back at the beach, telling our kids the story of U n Me.

The Girl with a lil Something.

There's a girl out there who spreads laughter wherever she goes. She moves like the silence of the night, yet she never goes unnoticed. Infact, it's pretty darn tough to not notice her. Her eyes gleam with playful mischief and her smile is one that would make you want to blush. Her voice is like a melody n when she speaks you just have to listen. She always has a lot on her mind but less to say and sometimes, most times, she'll say a lot n it will not make sense to you at all but it all comes out from the chaos within. She may leave u today but she always leaves u with a lil something in ur heart to remember her by. If love had another name, it would be hers.

Come in with The Rain (28th May 2014)

i've always loved the rain. it comes jus aftr d summer. its like a fresh feel aftr a long tiring day. like a breath of fresh air in d midst of d pollution. its like a cool drink wen ur dying of thirst. in d midst of all d chaos its an excited outburst... frm within... i keep it all in... n now its not der.... m waitin for it to return soon... other places have it.... oh how i wish i was in those places... how lucky d ppl der...

to Live with Grace

my life has never been easy... n most of the tyms its my big mouth tht has been d cause of that. be it misunderstandings or lashing out at some close ones.... i tend to hav a real hard tym keepin my mouth shut. wen im hurt, angry n frustrated i hav to voice it out to d person involved or i remain bitter n come up wid ever so perfect one liners in my head n wish i could say them to ur face or text them to u..... but i dnt n i try to hold back frm even posting it on fb or whatsapp cuz tht neva reli does any good n it either lets ppl think ur life is shitty or tht ur angry wid ur boyfriend *facepalm*

anyway, tho i hold myself responsible for these lil messes tht i make, they all stem frm d fact tht someone or d other who is close to me is taking me for granted n fails to acknowledge d many tyms i hav been der for them n not tht i even expect a thank u but atleast i dnt want criticism. atleast i expect u to hav my back. i mean if d tables wer turned u noe wid blind faith i wud neva leave ur side. but u stil chose to treat me like i dnt even exist worst stil tht u treat urself above me cuz u think ur better than evryone else. u dnt see it now but one day u wil hav wats coming to u. all of u. im not cursing anyone. i just noe tht our God is a fair God n if he sees injustice, he makes things right in his own tym.

ohkay i lost track of wat dis is really about. GRACE. and living with it. i used to let go of things so gracefully wen i was schooling. somewhere down d line i started to n hold on tightly to pain n hurt in d depth of my heart n keep grudges till i blasted out at d person concerned. and see, I noe thts not right behaviour. i correct my thots wen i make a statement to myself in my head about wat a random person on d road is wearin. then y do i hold on to stuff where my close ones r concerned... cuz it hurts n i dnt expect dat kind of behaviour frm them. so God please gimme d Grace to let go n move on from trivial things tht loved ones say no matter how hurtful. words are kind of my best frnds n worst enemies. need to deal with tht.

to HIM

i noe things havent always been easy wid us. i noe u want tym to urself n i respect tht. i get tht ur goin thru some stuff.. jus wish u'd let me be a part of it cuz we're in dis together right? anyway u take ur tym wid things n i hope u find wat ur lookin for. jus noe tht m always gonna be here no matter wat i say or do. even if u dont want me there i'll still hold u tight n we'll ride d storm together. cuz dats wat frnds r supposed to do.