We are never ever getting back together (J Lo)

There's gonna be times when people decide they want to spend all of their time with you and then suddenly one day they decide to stop doing that. It's not about you. It's about them. Yes may seem selfish but this is giving you an opportunity to focus on you and doing what you love. Being who you were meant to be all along. Don't stress yourself with these things love. You are nobody's option. You are a ball of amazing and everyone knows it even if they don't tell you. So ride the storm, enjoy the rain, expect the worst but most importantly, don't lose heart. Because you were destined for greatness love. And God doesn't make mistakes.

Missing JPaul when i was with J Lo.

I don't miss him at all. I love being with you. I love what we have. I hope it lasts us a long long time. I wud still like to be friends with him. But it's cool even if we're not friends. Cuz everything has a reason and m done trying to figure out dis one. My life has never been so stress-free and AMAZING n m glad u came into my life n showed me that I deserve to be treated with the love u shower on me. Ur amazing n m so blessed that I gave this a chance. Actually, it jus happened on it's own. I Lowe you.

I can do better. And i did (in December 2015)

Force hurricane

She is a force to be reckoned with
A mighty hurricane
She can chew u up then spit you out like it didn't even matter.
Or she can make you feel like the king of the jungle.
Cuz that's what this world's turned into

But she's the best you've ever had
And you know it doesn't get better than this.
So choose her if she chooses you
Cuz she could do a lot better
But she still chooses a worthy partner
If u leave, it's your loss

Her heart is full of life even in all its smallness.
Her mind, of brilliance.
She'll make you feel things you never knew you'd feel.
She'll make you want to run away to another realm.
All this will scare you so you'll back down.
Finally she'll know, no one can match this force.

Where it all began (J Lo)

No matter where I go, or what I do.
I know the safest place in d world is with you.
I was lost momentarily. And then I found you.
In your arms is where I wanna stay.
Cause the only real thing is the way.. you make me feel.
And I don't wanna lose this feeling.
No I don't wanna ever let go.
Your smile is the sexiest thing on this planet.
It's driving me crazy, oh honey where should I go?

Life only gets Better!

Know that no matter what happens and no matter how much you struggled, if it wasn't what you wished for, it will leave you by God's grace. Because He wants something better for you. Because you deserve better. And it will come to you exactly when you're ready. And then it will all make sense. The unanswered questions will have an answer you'd have never imagined. And if you are low at any point, remember this always. Right now you're flooded with emotion and it's chaotic within like a storm. But be calm. Breathe. The thing that you secretly wanted, needed badly, but you felt you didn't deserve, will come to you. And then you'll learn to love yourself a lil bit more. Just the way you're supposed to. And then you'll know that you're made for much more and the thing that you lost was actually wearing you down. And now... You feel lighter than ever.

I Love Me.

To be read as if you've written it.

Thank you for giving me this experience. It has made me stronger, more confident, more happier and most importantly, it has made me realize that I am truly amazing and no matter who I lose, they will always remember me as someone they'll crave but never have. No one can even come close to the awesomeness that is me. I have it all. I am it all. And all this is only because of God. He has gifted me with amazing parents, people like you, people like me, and people undifferentiated. For the first time, losing something that meant the most to me has made me fall in love with myself. I know now that whoever I meet will think "that's someone who is different, unique." I've always been the person to never bother what others think of me. Because those who mind, don't matter. And those who matter, don't mind.

Thank You 2014.

This year has been the toughest year by far. A close friend turned into someone i barely talk to. i lost a close relative. i lost what i thought was the best relationship I'll ever have. There were health issues, i was pushed to my breaking point and i think i actually broke at one point. And i tried to find the pieces and put them back together. And the more i tried, the more broken i felt. I would barely get used to one setback, another one would come my way. I told myself that there are people out there who go thru far worse and still come out stronger. I told myself "BE A MAN" (i dunno why but that gave me strength for a while) as the year was coming to an end, i felt a sense of hopelessness. I cried and cried and asked God to make the pain less for i knew happiness was in the near future. Sometimes He worked His magic. Other times i cried so much that i stopped feeling so low. I found newness in a few recent old friends. It was like a breath of fresh air. But the pain of not having him to hug and hold, kept coming back. Then, 1st of JAN 2015 happened. And everything changed in the span of five minutes. I got my old self back, i got closure, i got a reason to smile the way i used to wen i was a kid. I finally found the main piece that was missing from me. I had to FORGIVE and let go of a 9-10 year old piece of hurt that i carried in my heart. It weighed me down, it affected me in ways i didn't even know or realize. And now, no matter what comes my way, I'll deal with it cuz I'm ME. God truly is Amazing!