This year has been the toughest year by far. A close friend turned into someone i barely talk to. i lost a close relative. i lost what i thought was the best relationship I'll ever have. There were health issues, i was pushed to my breaking point and i think i actually broke at one point. And i tried to find the pieces and put them back together. And the more i tried, the more broken i felt. I would barely get used to one setback, another one would come my way. I told myself that there are people out there who go thru far worse and still come out stronger. I told myself "BE A MAN" (i dunno why but that gave me strength for a while) as the year was coming to an end, i felt a sense of hopelessness. I cried and cried and asked God to make the pain less for i knew happiness was in the near future. Sometimes He worked His magic. Other times i cried so much that i stopped feeling so low. I found newness in a few recent old friends. It was like a breath of fresh air. But the pain of not having him to hug and hold, kept coming back. Then, 1st of JAN 2015 happened. And everything changed in the span of five minutes. I got my old self back, i got closure, i got a reason to smile the way i used to wen i was a kid. I finally found the main piece that was missing from me. I had to FORGIVE and let go of a 9-10 year old piece of hurt that i carried in my heart. It weighed me down, it affected me in ways i didn't even know or realize. And now, no matter what comes my way, I'll deal with it cuz I'm ME. God truly is Amazing!
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